Cassy In Her Own World

Someone who has made my life worth living Again, I'm not entirely sure how to answer this. There have been so many people in my life that have made life a little easier, a little better, a little brighter, a little...more than it should be. My mother, for one, is an inspiration all on her own. At times, she worked 3 jobs just to make ends meet, but she always made life something to look forward to. She survived 3 miscarriages, 2 daughters, one divorce, an abusive relationship, fleeting romances, countless moves, several dead end jobs, broken limbs, scratched knees, huge fights, even bigger disappointments, being completely broke and overdrawn, and overall a very hard life. Through it all, she never let on how hard it was on her. My sister gave me hope. We never had a good relationship when we were younger (in fact, we took sibling rivalry to the extremes at most times), but around her 18th birthday, we really got to know each other. Of course, it wasn't really hard -- we we...

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Discuss some of the things on your bucket list On my bucket list, the list of things to do before I die? I want an adventure. Something really exciting, dangerous, thrilling, amorous (maybe). I want one good rush of adrenalin in my life that I can look back on in my life when things get dull. It doesn't even have to be a long adventure, it could be just a few hours. But it should be something that makes me really feel alive. I want to get married. I want to have a happy relationship with a man I love, have one or two children, live right outside the city with a small house and a backyard and perhaps a few animals. It's boring, it's overdone, it's stereotypical, it's apple pie American, but it's my dream. I want to see Japan and Australia and Russia. I want to be kissed in the rain. It is the most romantic notion I can think of, and I don't want to miss out on that experience. I'm 19 years old now and I still have yet to be really kissed. I defi...

day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something I hope to change about myself and why I've never put a lot of thought into changing myself. Sure, I've had the odd kick now and then: lose weight, get in shape, better diet, stricter hygiene routine, clean my room, be nicer, etc. etc. etc. ... But they've all passed, either due to my lack of strong will to actually do these things or because I talked to a friend and realized I didn't need to. I don't think people should change themselves unless it is absolutely dire. Telling an obese child they need to run and play and get in shape isn't trying to demean the child, although people might see it that way, it's trying to make it healthy and with that health comes happiness, because maybe it'll feel better and avoid early onset diabetes. Telling someone to stop smoking isn't trying to hurt them, it's trying to help them. Of course, people try and change others all the time without any thought to the person's feelings. Americans tr...

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So, two posts ago (counting this one) was my ONE HUNDREDTH POST! On this blog, anyway. -gives self pat on the back- I'm so proud of myself for getting to 100. Next stop: TWO HUNDRED! Let's see if I make it! --Cassy

Something about which people seem to compliment me Aaaaaah, finally something I can lash out about. It's not that I don't enjoy the odd compliment every now and then -- it's nice to be noticed, really -- but if every single freaking person on the PLANET continuously tells you how wonderful you are at something, it really gets on your nerves, doesn't it? I mean, please tell me it's not only me.  My thing is my "greatest asset" on the job market, according to my mother (who also compliments me about it, but not to me, to OTHER people): The German language. I can speak it, yes. I'm fairly fluent, yes. I can understand dialect and old German and I can even speak in slang, yes. I write a mean essay when I'm forced to in German, OK!! Just because I can do all that doesn't mean I'm a freaking lingual wonder! If you take any Tom, Dick or Harry (really trying not to laugh at those three names right now) off the street, stuck him in a country where...

day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something at which I've been the champion or the best Well...I've never won an award for anything. Unless you count the Citizenship Award I received in sixth grade. But again, I was not the best, and other people were awarded with them as well. I'm not much of a competitor, I suppose. At least not in the sense that I like to win lots and lots of awards and show them all off in a fancy-schmancy showcase. I guess I've been the best in English class at school, but that's by default. I'm the only native speaker! I've been told that I was the best singer of the bunch of us when we performed the Sound of Music, but I can hardly call that an accomplishment. I'm just normal, average, run-of-the-mill in every way, I suppose. And I'm just fine with that. --Cassy

day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Vacation hiatus! xO

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Vacation hiatus! xOOOO

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So, apparently days 7, 8 and 9 are all a vacation hiatus. Dx So...no posts for the next three days (funny how that worked out juuuuust in time for Easter, no?). I guess I should get to work on my school stuff...HAHA, I know, funny, right?

day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry   day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something that excites you and fills you with joy. I don't think I have to explain this, but I guess I will, just so this post doesn't pale in comparison to the others. What am I excited about? What fills me with joy? The prospect of graduation being only 2 months away, the idea of summer playing with my emotions (and my skin color) outside, the thought of being back home in my native with all of the people I love. I can already feel the spray of the ocean on my face as I stand in the hot, soft sand. I can taste my family's food, barbecues, watermelon, water ice, new babies, fireworks...Everything I think about every day, everything I miss when I think of home, everyone I see when I close my eyes, every day that brings me closer to those people, those feelings...that excites me. That brings me joy. I don't think there's anything else I need to say. Sometimes, the less you write means more than if you wrote 5,000 pages. --Cassy

day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry   day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something in life that gives me balance Something in life that keeps me balanced? I'm not quite sure what to make of this. I suppose I could say that I keep myself from going insane by going for long walks. No, not long walks on the beach under the moonlight or any of that romantic crap (please someone tell me what the hell is so romantic about the smell of salt and the feeling of squishy sand between your toes when you walk and the gross layer of salty sweaty water that accumlates over your skin when you go for a walk on the beach?). Sometimes, when I can't stand being around people, don't want to sit still, want to scream because I can't hear myself thinking, I go outside and walk off the steam. It's a real release, just letting go of my emotions and thoughts and letting them and the accompanying music have free reign over my mind. Pounding the concrete, thinking about whatever suits me, feeling the wind in my hair and face...It's a nice feeling. One of th...

day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry   day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy This is my usual routine:  I get up  I wash my face  I do my hair  I do my makeup  I catch the tram  I go to school  I come home  I get on the computer  I talk with people  I log off  I go to bed  I do it all over again What I enjoy most about that routine? Probably the talking with people after school. Not because I particularly enjoy talking (writing is more of my thing ^.-), but because of the people I talk to. You might remember my last post saying something about best friends? Well, yea. I talk to my friends, I talk to people on Facebook, I talk to my family sometimes, but the one person I can count on to always  be on, to always  have something to say, even if it's just, "Hey. What's up?", has definitely got to be my best friend. Otherwise known as my boyfriend. I'm going to start off by saying that when we first met, it was definitely not "...

day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry   day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something with which I struggle I struggle daily with the fact that I live over 4000 miles away from the most important people in my life (i.e. my family, my best friends, my boyfriend, my sister, my nephew, etc.). I don't want to be like "wah, wah, wah, I live in Europe, I'm a spoiled brat, my life sucks", because that would definitely not be me (most of the time ;)). No, my big problem is that my entire childhood was spent with these people, they're a very solid constant in my life, and things like holidays and special occasions are really hard to handle without them. I couldn't go to two of my cousins' weddings, my best friends' graduations, my sister's college graduation, various family parties, prom with my best friends...It's hard. Sure, I have friends in Austria, and I love them dearly and I will definitely miss them when I (and yes, I will) leave, but it's not the same. The connections I made with the people back in the States a...

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day 15 - a song that describes you   day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate   day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry   day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood   day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Something you regret not having done last year Well, I can't really think of anything. It's only been like 4 months since last year, but still, I can't remember thinking at any time last year that I regret not having done something. Oh, wait! I have one. Not REALLY a regret, but still: The night of my Junior prom was the same night 30 Seconds to Mars was in concert and I didn't go. But still, not really a regret since I was at prom. Teehee. --Cassy

Something I'm looking forward to this year So many things to look forward to! Graduation, trip to America, starting college...But I guess the most important thing I'm looking forward to is becoming an aunt. Squared. Lucky as I am, both my sister and one of my best friends got pregnant last year, and come May, I'll have a little "niece" named Lilyanna followed by my nephew (biological, this time) Nathan in June. I've watched my friends and family members delight in being aunts and uncles and for a long time now, I've wished I could join the ranks and be a doting aunt. Finally, my wish has come true and not only will I have a little boy to coddle, but also a little girl to spoil. Now, to work on the whole long-distance thing... --Cassy

Day 01: Something you're looking forward to this year. Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year. Day 03: Something with which you struggle. Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy. Day 05: Something in life that gives you balance. Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy. Day 07: Vacation Hiatus Day 08: Vacation Hiatus Day 09: Vacation Hiatus Day 10: Something at which you've been a champion or the best. Day 11: Something about which people seem to compliment you. Day 12: Something you hope to change about yourself and why. Day 13: Discuss some of the things on your bucket list. Day 14: Someone who has made your life worth living. Day 15: A band/musical artist whose music impacted your life. Day 16: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. Day 17: Someone with whom you shared a friendship/relationship that simply drifted out of your life. Day 18: Someone you met randomly that's made an im...

day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

day 09 - a song that you can dance to day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29 - a song from your childhood day 30 - your fav...

day 08 - a song that you know all the words to day 09 - a song that you can dance to day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could play day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty day 29...

day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event day 08 - a song that you know all the words to day 09 - a song that you can dance to day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument day 27 - a song that you wish you could p...

day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event day 08 - a song that you know all the words to day 09 - a song that you can dance to day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrum...

day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event day 08 - a song that you know all the words to day 09 - a song that you can dance to day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep day 11 - a song from your favorite band day 12 - a song from a band you hate day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love day 15 - a song that describes you day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio day 19 - a song from your favorite album day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral day 25 - a song that makes you laugh da...